Friday, May 29, 2020

Apocalypse

Lyrics

We're coming to the edge
Running on the water
Coming through the fog
Your sons and daughters
Let the river run
Let all the dreamers
Wake the nation
Come, the New Jerusalem
Silver cities rise
The morning lights
The streets that meet them
And sirens call them on
With a song
It's asking for the taking
Trembling, shaking
Oh, my heart is aching
We're coming to the edge
Running on the water
Coming through the fog
Your sons and daughters
We the great and small
Stand on a star
And blaze a trail of desire
Through the dark'ning dawn
It's asking for the taking
Come run with me now
The sky is the color of blue
You've never even seen
In the eyes of your lover
Oh, my heart is aching
We're coming to the edge
Running on the water
Coming through the fog
Your sons and daughters
It's asking for the taking
Trembling, shaking
Oh, my heart is aching
We're coming to the edge
Running on the water
Coming through the fog
Your sons and daughters
Let the river run (let the river run)
Let all the dreamers (let all the dreamers)
Wake the nation (wake the nation)
Come, the New Jerusalem

- Carly Simon




You awake.
It's the Apocalypse.

But it's not the Apocalypse you imagined or even were told about in legends, stories or the Bible.

Not in the literal sense.

And it doesn't happen in a single day.

Nor is it linked to a single solitary event.

And there were no doomsday prophets screaming about the end of the world, even though the signs were everywhere for everyone to see...

But you saw it coming.
Or at the very least, you suspected something was amiss...
But would they believe you?
Even though you knew something wasn't right?

We live in a society where the spiritual, artistic and musical are disregarded as some nonsensical fictional bullshit.

But a quote exists, that goes something like..."After climbing the Everest of science and knowledge for centuries, the researchers arrive at the top only to find a bunch of theologians waiting for them there..."

What if...?

What if...we have killed the very things that made us an evolved species?

What if, during biblical times, people were a lot more evolved and therefore more in touch with the spiritual? Which could enable them to identify problems as spiritual before they manifested as physical?

It is widely known that people who focus deeply and with intent on their spiritual side, lead more peaceful lives (Buddhist monks come to mind). 

No...I'm not talking about the problem cases. I am not disregarding the importance of medicine and science, but without a healthy balance, there can be no equilibrium...

When we speak to God, it is called prayer. But when God talks back, it is called mental insanity...

The whole world is suffering from a severe mental Apocalypse...the pursuit of self. We have been indoctrinated with the novel idea that to look out for number 1 supersedes all other pursuits. But what if by looking out for each other, is the most primal survival act we could accomplish?

What if, by extending our reach of influence, we are literally taking care of ourselves?

And no...I am not talking about charity work...

I am literally talking about sharing what we go through with others.

And not only on Social Media.

In fact, I am highly against social media posting. You often see a single line or a single post on social media and because you do not know the details of the context it was posted in, react in a way that could alter the course of events drastically.

But no...the Apocalypse is here...to take care of number one...

And you saw it coming...in fact, you felt it within your very bones...like the ant feel the rain coming and start scurrying around to move their precious eggs...or like the swallows feel the warmth of the summer air departing in the atmosphere and start swirling in flocks to start their long journey to warmer regions...in the same way you felt it coming, yet, just like the ants and swallows, you knew that there would be nothing you could do to prevent the inevitable avalanche of chaos that you knew was steadily approaching, you could only prepare yourself and hope for the best...

Because you knew...the Apocalypse had started...

And to look out for number one was all you could do... 










Thursday, May 28, 2020

Just a thank you

Thank you for you
For all that you so unselfishly do
For every prayer, for every smile
For everything you perform all the while

And my simple words
May never quite say
All the joy and peace you bring
In each and every day

So please just know
That I'm blessed just because
I get to know you, and have you
For a small time in this universe

Never change who you are
Just in case that the sun
You so brilliantly radiate
Should dull or down run

Always be
Just the person you are
So all can revel
In the beauty of God

So here's my thank you
Just a simple few words
But know that your value
Means more than diamonds or pearls...

Thursday, May 14, 2020

Parent...

As I sit here, cold, behind my desk
And wonder about my work
Every now and again my thoughts would go
To you and where you live

Your quiet peace, your tranquility
Your care and soft wisdom I know
As clear as dawn, as soft as silk
Your care for others is shown

In your gentle words, your soft spoken voice
You try and impart some grace
To this harsh old world, and all the turmoil within
Us young ones so often times have to face

Never once you must think, for a second or more
That your words mean nothing or less
For all that you are, means so much to me
And to others, I can guarantee, in universe and space

Oh how i wish i could keep, you here young forevermore
That your grey would once more become young
And your body filled with life, so you would be for always
A blessing for all the world just to have

But time doesn't stand still, and how else could it be?
How else would I ever appreciate?
The time here with you, this time that means so
Much more than I could ever afford or pay?

So even as the dawn draws its curtain on your life
And your hair shows the silver lining of life
Just know that I was, ever so fortunate
To have called you a part of my own life

I cherish your wisdom, your words, your soft love
I remember moments you couldn't know
Actually touched me, and mold me, into what's to become
The legacy of what you leave in the world

"Thanks for being a parent", can never come close
To what you ever meant to me in my life
So I'll write a few lines, just a few blurry words...
To tell you this truth...so it's told...


Sunday, May 3, 2020

Believe me...I saw...

And then...one day you see it
As clear as day it comes to you
But no...you tell yourself
It simply cannot be
How can I be the one to see the end?
The only one chosen to see it coming?
Was it my own imagination?
Some twisted nightmare formed from memory?
How is it possible that 2 years before
I saw it coming and no one believed?
How did I see it, but simply ignored
The message to publish, to warn, so much more...?
Why did I not just say it?
What I felt to be so true?
Let them then call me a Jonah,
A freak, fanatic, crazy liar, or whatever more?
My burden is mine to bear
For I see so clearly now
That was was shown to me was just for all
Not just for me...not just for those
I told or tried to convince
Of the dread I felt to be for sure
So now I'll tell you
Whether you choose it or not - that's for you
Just decide for yourself, and make the right decision
To make sure you can live with your past decisions too...
So here it is...make of it just what you may...
But what I can say, but that what I felt came true...
Theres a difference between what I "see"
What I "feel" and what I "hear"
It isn't images, sounds or feelings
Like you normally would perceive
Theres no date or time linked to it
Theres no definite way of knowing
You just know what you know,
And that's all I can tell you for sure,
I felt a pandemic coming
Not like any ever seen or felt
And that people would think they'd control it
That it all just would pass away once more...
I saw myself driving on a road
But the side had corpses as far as I drove
There were people holding their hands out for help
Mostly next to their dead loved ones
And I saw a fear that gripped them
But they were too dangerous to offer them help
So I warn you now of the things to come
Choose to ignore at your own peril
But I've stayed silent too long, I cannot anymore
And I only share this with you...
People will think that the worst had passed
And everything will get better soon...
And just as deaths drop drastically down
It'll increase exponentially more
Overnight you will lose loved ones
People suddenly will be no more
And your sorrow will seem to be endless
Because life will have meaning no more
But I urge you to run on
Carry on and fight for your life - just do
Because I see a different world rising
Something else than you've ever seen before
Your life will have meaning, it'll have purpose
Believe that it's true
Because you will be so much more needed
Than you could ever imagine or more...
Make your peace with God
Because no matter how you see
The end to be coming
Or believe in this...in me...
Your Creator will guide you
This is one thing I know for sure
Ask Him for His advice daily
Every second if you can too
Because nothing can protect you
From the dread to befall us all
Only He can be your Saviour
Only He will bring healing to

Saturday, May 2, 2020

Just you...


When I met you, you were simply you...
A stranger, not familiar, just friendly, smiling...you
And even though I didn't know the role you had yet to play
In my life, the way I see things, and the world as it is today

Your smile was just so friendly, and your laughter simply infectious
As I watched you move amongst your friends,
Your family, wife and more....

I simply couldn't understand, how you always saw the sun
Even though the world some days were dark
And everything seemed blue...
You always kept on laughing, telling jokes and being you...

Your love for all seemed unending, yet your family always first...
You love your wife like a knight of old,
Like I imagined a real gentleman would do...
With tenderness, romance and passion - yet always being you...

You raised your children to be fair and real
True souls that brings value to
Those all around their lives' - and so much more
Every person they meet in life too...

And I was lucky, to be one of those
To have felt your magic touch
Your simple words when you saw my pain
Your wink and laughter too...

And even though I can never say
In words what you mean to me
Just know, you are an example to all
But most of all...to me...




Friday, May 1, 2020

Sometimes...

Sometimes...

I think of you...

A lady so graceful
For all would stop and stare...

Sometimes I remember...

Your splashes of red in life...

Like sparks of true life flickering through the blinds of existence,
To remind us there's more than just mundane life blisters...

Sometimes I wonder...

What your heart really beats for?

What would stir you, excite you
Or bring a smile on in your day or more?

Sometimes I wish...

You were here just to sit with...

Have a cuppa, and not stoppa
Talking about everything or nothing at all...

But always I remember you...

As graceful as can be...

And I wish - just for once - you could see yourself ... like I see...


Die wêreld is nie vir n vrou nie

Die wêreld is nie vir n vrou nie...


Wil jy n vrou wees meisie?
Wil jy n man hê en kinders baar?
Wil jy n huis bou met kamers
En herinneringe van n familie skaar?

Dan moet jy eelte op jou kniee hê
Van aande om bid
Vir n siek kind wie se koors nie wil breek
En n man wat vêr weg op besigheid sit...

Dan moet jou hande nooit leeg wees
En jou hartskamers altyd een oop hê
Want jy gaan nooit weet wanneer nog n siel
In jou hart se Hotel moet kom bly nie...

Jou oë moet soos die Amazone wees
Want huil gaan jy sommer baie dae doen
En hoe hard dit ook al is...jy gaan moet aanhou huil...
Want dit is wat jou oë sag en liefdevol gaan hou...

Die wêreld was nooit gemaak vir n vrou nie
- God het ons eers na alles klaar was gemaak
So baie dae gaan dit hard en wreed en aaklig wees,
Maar jou glimlag gee dit die sagtheid wat dit kort...

My kind - ek wens vir jou net mooi
Maar ek het te veel pyn ervaar om te weet dit is nie vir jou beskore nie
Maar jou Skepper is elke tree reg langs jou
Moet dit nooit vergeet nie

So as die storms van die lewe jou sou tref,
Egskeiding, Affairs, Siekte, Werkloosheid of selfs Dood...
Onthou jou skurwe kniee en gaan slyp hulle langs jou bed
Want Jou Hemelse Vader sluimer of slaap nooit nie...

My pragtige meisiekind - my lelie waarop ek trots is
Die ewigheid is nie vir my nie, maar ek wens ek kon
Elke sekonde langs jou stap om alles beter te maak
Want jy is te kosbaar vir hierdie wêreld en al sy pyn en lyding

So leer van my my kind, en moenie dieselfde foute bly maak nie
Erken jou Skepper al vroeg in jou lewe al
En stort jou hart daagliks voor Hom uit
Want die wêreld is nie vir n vrou gemaak nie...



Druppeltjie...

In my volgende lewe will ek n druppeltjie wees
En jy...n brander in die groot oseaan
Dat ek heeldag en heelnag deur my ganse lewe net gaan
En Deur jou 'are' kan vloei en vir altyd in jou bestaan


Today...

Today, i looked at you from heaven
And simply knew without a doubt
The angels cried that special day
that God made you for me
Because in all creation they never believed
A man so perfect could exist
My eyes wished i could see you
Just one more time
Smiling at me in the morning
And my lips burned to feel
Just once more that last lingering kiss
My body wished to be close to you
With your strong arms to protect me
My thoughts longed for the peace
That your deep voice and tender words brought
My legs quivered at the thought of running to you
And my heart bled tears of pain
Because yours' was so far away...
Had I known what I know now
I never would stop kissing you
For to miss a single second meant
To miss the best part of eternity...

Today, I looked down from heaven,
And cried a storm of hail and suffering
Because i simply knew without a doubt...

The angels cried when God made you...



Phoenix...

Live your life as though you were living in Heaven .... Beautifully...
See miracles, wonders and beauty everywhere around you .... and appreciate every step of the way...

Be grateful for the life that is yours... there is beauty everywhere...even in struggle and pain - see yourself as a Phoenix that is being reborn from the ashes...

You are a beautiful gift to the world...appreciate that...


The universe and galaxy of your love....

I walked across a dune, across the beach of all eternity
And somewhere in the wind, I heard a familiar voice whispering something familiar
A name I've known my whole life, but which was never a part of my reality
A promise of something so great, a love that could even stop time itself

It beckoned my soul across time and space, across strange new galaxies and more
I followed it everywhere I went - but sometimes simply lost track of it
And whenever that would happen, I found my mind filled with question marks
With tears, despair and more...because it was as though it called me before I'd even knew...

And then i found it, hidden in between that strange space between sunset and dusk...
And nothing could prepare me for what awaited me that fateful day
Like a dream and a wish coming together and being better and more than I've ever thought it could
It was you...more perfect than my wildest dreams and more awesome than my wildest desires...

But my passion for you burnt brighter than I ever knew could be possible
Threatening to devour me with insecurity and desire like I never knew before
And still...even as the fire threatened to destroy me with its flames of raw love, I willingly stepped into the centre of it...
Because even as the flames were eating away at my heart and soul until there was nothing left of me...

Being nothing with you, exceeds being the best anywhere else, in any galaxy amongst all of the universes that had ever existed...


Remember...

This morning you got up, but nothing seemed the same...

Everything you've dreamt of and hoped for have turned out differently to what you had hoped and you ask yourself the same question:"Why?"

I saw the centuries of pain that your struggles had multiplied in your eyes, and even though I know your spirit to be young, your sorrow seemed to have lasted an eternity...

And as I thought of what to say and how to feel and how to help, the only Answer I could get was:"Remember..."

Remember...

When life just seems pointless and your prayers are left unanswered,

When your bills keep piling up and you hope for some relief,

When frustration and sorrow and desperation tears at your seams,

And the very fabric of your mere existence seems to unravel in this world,

When your tears behind your eyes burns a tunnel into your vision,

And your silent screams for help are only echoed in your soul,

When you need relief in any form but every doorway has been locked,

And your worries for your family seems like an impossible cross to bear,

Just remember...

That I love you

That the whole world rings with the sound of your name...

In the moments - you simply cannot...

Go on or it feels like you'll simply fade away....

Just remember, that I need you,
That my life will never be the same
If you should give up
If you disappear

Even though I seem so far away and not that near...

I pray for you daily,I miss your friendship,

I miss your love and all of you that makes you dear...

And just remember, I cry here for you...

Sometimes it feels it's all that i can do to feel...

A little better....just know i love you!!!!

More than words or gold or life itself could be...!

Your smile is like sunlight, like every sunrise, and warms my heart in ways you cannot even know...

Just remember...

I see you struggle...

And i miss your hugs, your laughter in the real...

I miss the way things, used to be .... and just how easy and just beautiful life was!

Just remember, I'll keep on fighting.

Just as long as you'll remember to fight too....